I want to be the best daughter for my parents, the best sister for my siblings, the best girlfriend and eventually the best wife. But how do I excel in fulfilling the needs of those that I care the most? I’ve always put others first before my own and realized it now to how much I lost the person I really am. I must learn again to love myself in order to provide the love I have to give to others. It is hard for me to be selfish because I spent my whole life servicing for others. But I have to try harder now to really focus on myself. I’m afraid that once I do, I would lose many people along the way. Although that may be the case, those who really means well, would be there for me till the very end.

Life goals

Marriage has always been a sacred thing. A special time where two people creates a bond and become one. Although the journey through a successful marriage is not always going to be easy, if the two people really cares about each other, they will always find a way to compromise. After a failed marriage of my own, I want my next (hopefully) to be better. I’m sure all people that has been in my shoes feels for the same thing. Just having to experience what I did with my first, I want to use that as a lesson to use when I do end up getting married again. I promised myself before, that I would marry just once and when times got rough, I will find a way to make things work. Unfortunately that was not the case for my last marriage. Married at 20, divorced at 24. I am so cautious now as to what I need to do with my life. Time does not stop for anyone and before I know it, I would be living in my late 30’s…50’s just wondering what the hell happened. This time around I will make a new promise to myself. It would be all about self-focus and self-improvement. I promise to do it right this time. Finishing school is my main priority and I am making it the first thing I must accomplish. Secondly, land a career to help my family. I’ve said it before and I will say it again — they deserve the world and so much more. Literally everything I do is dedicated to them. I have no time to be thinking about what I need because my family lays heavily on my mind 24/7.  And lastly, once my family is taken care of, marriage and a family of my own. I feel most comfortable with how I categorized my life goals because my top two is something I know I can ALWAYS rely on. Having someone by my side is a huge bonus, and ever greater if it’s with someone that I can relate my goals and dreams with.